I am starting to come to the conclusion that life has become alot more complicated then princes, princess's, castles, and the occational dragon. Because currently my life feels as if I have dragons being thrown at me from all directions.
I knew when I was younger that life wasnt going to be all sunshine and flowers but i mean, whats up with this!? After spenting my whole life at an amazing home in Ontario and now to suddenly have my life tossed into the completely opposite direction.. well its certainly not what I had in mind.
Ok i'm going to re-cap a little bit. My name is Rachel Lee MacMurchy. I was born in 1992 in the Markham Stouffville Hospital and was sent home on the 25th of June. I have lived at home on a beautiful lake since that date and 16 years later I couldnt have ever wanted to be anywhere else. Two weeks before Christmas '09 my parents sat me down aswell as my 3 siblings [ (Nathan, Rebecca -> both older and Tessa -> younger) we are all a year apart].. anyways, we were told that after growing up here, we were going to be moving across the country. Now if any of you reading this are movers out there then you might possibly be rolling your eyes, expecially if you do it often like i know some do. But i have never moved to a new place my entire life. Never had to experience making new friends, learning a new environment, starting over. I had these same friends for year, had a boyfriend who'd i'd loved for 3 and well.. yeah. Now British Columbia was my new destination and i was scared out of my mind.
I wont forget that day though. I couldnt stop crying. I remember going out onto the front driveway and falling into the snow trying not to throw up. Rebecca's friend picked her and I up and dropped me off at my best friend Merediths. I have never cried more in my entire life. While stepping onto her snowy driveway in my pajama's (snot probably running down my face and tears soaking my shirt) I looked into there direction. Meredith stood infront of the garage on the left side and Andrew (my boyfriend) on the right side. They weren't talking to eachother just shuffeling there nervously. I assume they were probably wondering what was wrong after my frantic call that i needed to see them. I stepped out of the car, fell into the snow and they ran to my side. Andrew helped me up and frantically cried then shouted out "f***ing British Columbia!" Meredith started crying, Andrew tried to act strong and I was simply just a mess. I fell asleep holding hands with Meredith that night, hoping, wishing, praying with my whole heart that when i woke up it would all have been a dream.
That dream never came. Five months later im currently in BC moving some of my stuff and looking at this new province which will be the foundation of my new house. I move into that house on Wednesday but not to stay. In a weeks time im returning home to Toronto where i will finish the year off at my school, pack up my life and and start my grade 12 year at my new school, at my new house... Its not been an easy couple of my months, actually they have actually been the most difficult ones that i have ever had to experiance. Throughout this time my faith has been shaken, my heart has been breaking but my life is still remaining. I know that I will continue to move on in my life trust God that he knows whats best and that he will do with my life what he chooses.
Until then my situation, feelings and thoughts will be posted on my on here hoping and praying that it might help other people who might have situations somewhat like mine will be. Until i write again...
I knew when I was younger that life wasnt going to be all sunshine and flowers but i mean, whats up with this!? After spenting my whole life at an amazing home in Ontario and now to suddenly have my life tossed into the completely opposite direction.. well its certainly not what I had in mind.
Ok i'm going to re-cap a little bit. My name is Rachel Lee MacMurchy. I was born in 1992 in the Markham Stouffville Hospital and was sent home on the 25th of June. I have lived at home on a beautiful lake since that date and 16 years later I couldnt have ever wanted to be anywhere else. Two weeks before Christmas '09 my parents sat me down aswell as my 3 siblings [ (Nathan, Rebecca -> both older and Tessa -> younger) we are all a year apart].. anyways, we were told that after growing up here, we were going to be moving across the country. Now if any of you reading this are movers out there then you might possibly be rolling your eyes, expecially if you do it often like i know some do. But i have never moved to a new place my entire life. Never had to experience making new friends, learning a new environment, starting over. I had these same friends for year, had a boyfriend who'd i'd loved for 3 and well.. yeah. Now British Columbia was my new destination and i was scared out of my mind.
I wont forget that day though. I couldnt stop crying. I remember going out onto the front driveway and falling into the snow trying not to throw up. Rebecca's friend picked her and I up and dropped me off at my best friend Merediths. I have never cried more in my entire life. While stepping onto her snowy driveway in my pajama's (snot probably running down my face and tears soaking my shirt) I looked into there direction. Meredith stood infront of the garage on the left side and Andrew (my boyfriend) on the right side. They weren't talking to eachother just shuffeling there nervously. I assume they were probably wondering what was wrong after my frantic call that i needed to see them. I stepped out of the car, fell into the snow and they ran to my side. Andrew helped me up and frantically cried then shouted out "f***ing British Columbia!" Meredith started crying, Andrew tried to act strong and I was simply just a mess. I fell asleep holding hands with Meredith that night, hoping, wishing, praying with my whole heart that when i woke up it would all have been a dream.
That dream never came. Five months later im currently in BC moving some of my stuff and looking at this new province which will be the foundation of my new house. I move into that house on Wednesday but not to stay. In a weeks time im returning home to Toronto where i will finish the year off at my school, pack up my life and and start my grade 12 year at my new school, at my new house... Its not been an easy couple of my months, actually they have actually been the most difficult ones that i have ever had to experiance. Throughout this time my faith has been shaken, my heart has been breaking but my life is still remaining. I know that I will continue to move on in my life trust God that he knows whats best and that he will do with my life what he chooses.
Until then my situation, feelings and thoughts will be posted on my on here hoping and praying that it might help other people who might have situations somewhat like mine will be. Until i write again...
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