A combination of exhaustion, lowerback pain, and heavy eye's are currently coursing through my body right now. I've spent the whole day along with Dad and Tessa packing up the apartment in BC and preparing it for the move tomorrow to the new house.
Not going to lie, im actually pretty excited to see what it is going to look like..but im also a little scared. I mean, for something to even come as remotely close to the beauty of the lake house... well it would take a miracle. Not saying that I dont believe that God can perform this miraculous act... but would he?
I sprayed the kitchen down with Spray Nine today and my hands are seriously taking the biggest effect. The smell... probably killed about the majority of the brain cells in my head. If that stuff doesnt kill germs i dont think anything will.
Dad got lonely tonite i guess because i am starting to realize that sooner or later i am going to have to join Him and Tessa in my bed. Not in a creepy molestation kind of way but my dad is pretty weird and had this odd fetish for cuddling. Which is fine I guess, because i like to cuddle. But i generally prefer the arms of my boyfriend... my dad isnt exactly what I had in mind.
I had a strange conversation with Andrew tonite on the phone. I dont know exactly whats happening between us. Things feel so different and i catch myself wondering if this is the way a loving relationship with your boyfriend is suppose to feel. I miss him. Terribly. But how come whenever we speak it feels like neither of us care. He says he does, heck so do I! But saying something and feeling meaning behind the currently meaningless words is another.
Oh well, apperintally this is yet another situation I am going to have to hand over to God again. Although He himself seems distant to me aswell. Maybe he is. But my matress and pillow are calling my name yet again. Hopefully tonite will be a better sleep than the last.
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